Dont get to down on yourself. Part of setting up life is getting your career settled. It happens from time to time that our lives sort of bottleneck and we find ourselves with a lot on our plate all at once. You getting married, traveling, transitioning from single to married life all sort of happened at once. You cant get down on yourself, for at least from a distance it seems pretty clear that you have handled things really well. People will come and go in life. Its not our pressence at their passing that is important, its that we remember them fondly or otherwise. That we take a moment in our life to remember theirs. You have done that here. You can be a comfort and support from afar. You can reflect on your interactions with people and bookmark in your mind the things that you want to remember forever. I know your family is very proud of you. They understand what you are doing and how important it is. Dont get down on yourself, be uplifted in the reality of the wonderful, strong life your uncle lived.
Hope touring is going well.
Love,

nate